What about MIT? Why do they bother experimenting with the cell technology in the way I describe? They're not doing anything new...the cell companies already have done the research and have figured anything out. So MIT research is not helping them...and they're not allowed to use it, so what is the point?
Look <this is addressed to nobody, maybe the country in general>...I don't want to do what I'm currently doing in my career forever. I see opportunities for myself doing other shit like this. I have the skills, energy, capability to work with the technology and improve it for everyone. Why am I not allowed to do this?? I am bored and wasted doing the things that people are asking me to do. It's not hard for me, it's not interesting, yes I get paid well, but I don't care for it. Why was everyone so encouraging when I was in school learning everything, proud of my abilities, bragging about my accomplishments, about my potential...but now whenever I actually try to implement my ideas which are a result of all that education and encouragement, the same people are fighting tooth and nail to keep me rooted to this stagnant position? Why is there so much fear? If I don't push myself, all anybody wants from me is to write a few emails and fill out some forms. I didn't need to learn quantum physics for this. I mean, I'm being pushed to the point where the only thing that I can do that is enjoyable for me and acceptable to others is play the piano. Which is fine. But I spent 20+ years formally getting educated as a scientist. In 10 years of working, nobody has asked me to help them figure anything out. So I took it upon myself to come up with projects that will put to use what I was trained to do. And whenever I do, seems like people will aggressively fight to make sure I can't move forward with it. There isn't even the slightest curiosity present as to these ideas or projects. Just dismissed outright.
You know, I was very happy as a kid wandering about and observing the world. Drawing, reading. Then everyone asked me to perform and to get formally educated. So I did. And I did very well, better than just about everyone around me according to the rubrics and grading systems. It felt good. I didn't feel like I sacrificed the drawing and what not for it. And now I'm a seasoned professional. I know how to balance the idealism of a student with the practicality of the real world. I know how to get shit done. And now nobody wants it?! I'm bothering them now?! People are scared of me? Think I'm anti-social? I meet more people and talk to more people than all the ones calling me anti-social! This is what they dragged me out of drawing for? I ALWAYS feel like I've been duped.