First take my excuse that i answer so late. Got notice of your post only now.
I agree with you that DC, with all his great members, can be (and for me, like you, IS) a vital part of life.
This results in, that i feel very deep with the success, failure, happiness and, as in your case, the condolement of regular and well known members, like you.
I'm not very good in saying such things. So i can only say that i'm really sorry to hear from your situation and i feel sorry myself too for what happened to you.
And it's getting worse when i have a look at the age of your loved one. It's so unfair when someone have to leave so young.
But, as you got now finally through all the cruel administrative things that must be done, until furneral is over, you now can and should look forward into your future life. Even if you don't can and shouldn't forget your life with Dawn of course, and you never can't get her out of your mind and heart. But please always remember the happy days spent together with her and not the last six months.
So i wish you, that your family and we here on DC can give you all the neccessary strength to get you back to normal life and help you over the upcoming hard times you still will have until your "wounds healed" and it won't hurt anymore as much as it do now.
With very sad greetings